as american as guns and ice cream.

oh what a week.

what a week.

string of bad luck.

and missteps.

big missed steps.

new relations.

please don't expect anything.

immature yes.

but i'm entitled to the whole damn opinion.

i don't think you should really talk.

oh well.

i'll get over it.

where is the anti-movement?

it certainly is starting here.

i don't mind.

stuffing up.

to the top.

can't do anything but.

keep going on.

rain. rain.

slippery condition.

of mind.

and physicality.

CRASH.

there goes the front end.

hyper activity.

and whackness.

thanks for the help.

whiplash.

give me a break.

going back to normalcy.

or not.

stress release.

ugh.

thanks for the lift.

cram it all in.

to this little space.

its enough.

for us to talk.

soft spots.

one at least.

flea markets.

tam-ALES.

and x files madness.

what the ____.

excuse me.

while i assert myself.

i'm sorry if it offends you.

haha.

top down.

scary tries.

let us in.

sign away.

airline attendant announcement.

so far from this outer voice.

fun mornings.

its going to be okay.

i wish you could hear the tings in my head.

oh i really do roll the dice.

leave me in the dawn.

take the fine silver and china.

and enjoy your tea.

and tradition.

i'm more over on the other side.

of what i want.

arms crossed.

avoidance.

drip. drop.

i can just hear it now.

ill plug in.

and give you my input.

its really not that complicated.

i've jumped ahead years.

my mind goes from a pebble to a mountain.

but it makes sense up there.

calm in the realm of things.

but not in the everyday.

you looked so boss.

standing the ground.

like a force to be reckoned with.

getting back to the old old.

new people to deal with though.

eh.

you've hit almost everything.

i've not much else to say about it.

let down your guard.

let's face it.

it will never happen.

you are always going to keep your little shine.

and so will i.

i just dont see them together.

the vista blues

butterflies.

all over my stomach.

love. live.

that's what i thought.

working gear.

its like ultimate power.

struggle for the edge.

i'm like a point at the top of a pyramid.

no one wants to come near.

you are just confused.

i think.

squeaky table.

rocking back and forth.

back and forth.

oh destination.

for an indescribable motion.

impeccable accurateness.

de los reyes.

y los reinas.

to be fair.

wake up.

and get moving.

your wasting the day.

rise with the light.

flickering shimmer.

of red/orange fire.

maybe we should change that.

just maybe.

stars abound.

i wish.

psychedelic rain drops.

loneliness.

shit.

its not going to work out.

the way you would think.

or want.

its just impossible.

because dreams are not that certain.

i must get out of the tangled web.

its far too stuffed.

full of chords.

i'm not certain of your reasons.

its a great decision.

that must be made.

which will it be?

the age old question.

actually i wonder how old it is.

when did this become so important.

that it had to ruin everything.

understanding is compliance.

attention.

of danger.

i crave the long forgotten.

you know.

had someone told me the reality.

i would have chosen differently.

perhaps i would have tried less.

its not even a matter of relativity.

its programmed.

seemingly.

i disagree with the whole.

but i suppose its a fact.

sharp tacks of love and hate.

i've been careful.

a week of exploration.

new people.

new dynamics.

shadow the clack of heels.

uncomfortable comfort.

i don't have any words for you.

all i can do is nod my head.

and hope for the best.

because i do feel for you.

random rendezvous.

do you remember me?

at all i wonder?

and i don't mean that superficially.

overwhelming fears.

split personality.

i don't know how much further i can go here.

before i really hit on something.

that i'm just too afraid to handle.

swimming fish.

losing time.

or lessening.

it's all there.

i've understood your candor.

and it's appreciated in some sense.

i wish things.

i don't see how it will happen.

in the snap.

drop new things in.

leave it behind on the grave.

missed fireworks.

and celebration.

circus fun.

dreams of color.

and swirls of imagination.

yes one of us knows someone around.

i'm glad for that.

stick it around.