go clean up your space.

anticipation.

blankness.

courage.

drive.

energy.

frenetic.

graciousness.

honesty.

innocence.

jolly.

kooks.

love.

mad.

novelty.

openness.

passion.

quietness.

regret.

sexy.

truth.

unity.

vanity.

wildness.

x.

yearning.

zealous.

goodbye dear year.

it has been up and down.

sticky keys and a red polish.

preoccupied.

losing checkers.

titanic dreams.

are you still alive?

negative enforcement.

how unlovely.

a return trip.

only to be disappointed.

know the sight.

a sweeping glance.

burned in memory.

skipping words.

and notes.

drive.

drive.

drive.

wish i could go the other way.

a long journey.

in at 5.

whats the use of trying?

a brush of feeling.

to be chased.

how did we use to be?

i <3 Lance

christmas runaround

i will take that one.

oh, how awkward running into you here.

child hopes.

long days.

what's the use of sleep?

oh to be home again.

long flights.

oh the smell of the south.

deep south that is.

hello, mr. paul bunyan.

say, where is your blue ox?

omg,

at least he was an optimist.

a cold trek.

green stripes and white lace.

target runs.

b+a-b+a-b+

eh. i'll take it.

the mood of a kite....

when there is no wind.

happy trail.

i love the lights.

numb.

slideshow.

it looks quite planned.

oversized mechanisms.

package fever.

ice cream loves.

awkward hello's.

stop with the notes already.

even more awkward goodbye's.

sullen look.

chattering teeth.

i just don't want to say anything.

but i need something.

just a little more.

witch voice in the morning.

really?

really?

tso. like the cirque de soleil of rock concerts.

your voice confuses me.

on the way out.

crack of nothing really.

bad ass steak houses.

a resting red place.

indulge.

just a little.

lower.

and lower.

a final stop.

in carefree land.

watch out, it comes at a price.

overtake of the canyon.

a quiet ride.

almost melancholy.

a hot fire.

you are a fascinating guide.

thanks for the stories.

fish enjoyed them.

your ring of time interests me.

talk of equinox and corn.

it's a bit much.

Polynesian navigation.

we shall be back.

less than extraordinary.

i hate to tell you.

no, its not fun actually.

rock on, however.

Daniel=denial.

haha loser.

i love you though.

i can't wait to see your kids.

red dots all around.

art.

more art.

i really don't know why.

i just do it.

shopping lore.

thank you.

for all your help.

hot coffee.

far too sweet.

but delicious.

diabetic feat.

stuck here.

until i can get out.

please don't jump.

no, no i lied again.

it's just the same for me.

you've turned me into....

something.

round disks.

leave the glass alone.

just forget everything.

wheres my red balloon?

wheres my anything?

press play.

and rewind.

3.7 Bitch.

Katietopia.

Hah, what a great place to live!

although a lot of people would get hurt.

i love your (dis)ingenuousness.

kudos to you. .

2 to be exact.

i cant wait for the small bag of peanuts.

blaring music!!!!

Goodbye!

moderate your excitement.

long day.

hats off to you.

hope to see you in the future.

or never again.

i think i'm partial to the latter.

10-2.

pounding heads.

reaching down.

way way down.

library daze.

excuse me.

study.

words and more pointless words.

where did you go?

avoid the past.

maybe it will help you in the future.

how nice of you.

sleep.

dark nights.

lonely days.

reflect on the meaning.

soup filled bowl.

excuse me.

i apologize.

once again.

bag lady.

at least its rich.

nightmarish dreams.

mall santa.

thanks for the wave.

and the kindness.

propose the thoughtless.

probing the past.

it just might hurt a little.

i can't wait to see you.

and yet I don't think we need each other anymore.

an icy trip.

snow fall.

bright light.

wake me up..

in ten.

frigid air.

swift fall.

hard hit.

icy road.

leave me alone.

would you?

the shell doesn't want to be disturbed.

least painful.

hats galore.

red lips.

blue dress.

kinda gray.

friendly goodbye.

have a nice life!

i never quite caught your name.

new beginnings.

and old time.

it seems to blend.

into one.

draft your life.

coffee bliss.

santa stalking.

new places.

paperclip mess.

a brief statement.

new people.

generally discontent.

but improving.

nice to meet you.

chocolate sauce and sprinkles.

how sad.

i don't resent you...

yet.

gringa.

and yet not so much.

thanks for the reminder.

and the chat.

strength in weakness.

there is none here.

pulling towards you.

a harder shell.

limited?

i hope not.

but i know the real answer.

a silver fox.

okay, it has been way way way too long since my last entry in the world.

okay so... we shall summarize or try to at least, but i'm sure i'll be forgetting half a months worth of events.

thanksgiving break.

sleep in the air.

red lights.

home again..

blue monstrosities.

hello, let's go get filters.

clean.

austin lights.

calling me.

sighs and winces.

a large gap.

almost there.

fresh air indoors.

jamba dreams.

cold mornings.

sweet goodbye's.

fighting and furry.

hello, grocery store.

it's been far too long.

endless dishes.

thanks for coming.

shop fun.

sneaking around.

malcontent.

muy bien.

this town is upside down.

thank God your here.

back to normal.

wrong door.

great leaders.

nice tie...ties.

jazz time.

tunes of old.

shadow puppets.

you've certainly disappeared nicely.

light the room.

the snowman by the tree.

frisbee nights.

white leaves.

snowfall.

a few more days.

and i will return.

a chilean quake.

endless week.

cheers from the crowd.

bicycle turns.

WATCH OUT, bff.

praiseful joy.

whining.

big city.

returning.

possibilities.

the question of chance.

a disagreement.

swirling thoughts.

jostled feelings.

lights.

more lights.

please give me my sunglasses.

that's better.

let me put down this armor.

or maybe not.

stupid betty.

laughing crowd.

hang the man.

craving for kix.

and fittings.

let me down now.

thank you.

i shall be there shortly.

a sad buzz.

it's been far too long.

i don't know why.

happenings are irrelevant.

rejuvinate.

new bees.

leave it all behind.

nyc lights.

bustling movement.

bad news.

as always.

nothing can ever be.

priceless works.

lines and zig zags.

blue and red.

leave me here.

i care for the bed.

wink after wink.

back to the post.

foodie delights.

rings of joy.

central markets.

rose talk.

moving on.

frigid scenes.

purple scrarf.

found your handkerchief.

bunsey baby.

i shall see you soon.

it's far too long.

24 ago.

hello, mr. marcell.

this has been a nice surprise.

as you like it i dare say.

a b.

buzz of joy.

you were misled.

mocha standing please

hm..

busy week.

red blinking lights.

dark tunnels.

don't fall behind.

open action.

green patterns.

leave this behind.

heated sheets.

reading woes.

sighful nights.

late mornings.

please wait here.

expecting your presence.

answers on the other end.

highlighted grief.

breathing in.

don't drown me.

sweeping lines.

brushing by.

burning crease.

spinning spokes.

unopened box.

rythmic beats.

swerving taxis.

six days.

whitened dreams.

baia links.

that was easy.

clinking drinks.

borrowed items.

nice to meet you.

blue gray silk.

wrapping around.

sweep the gleam.

enjoy your day.

here's what you said...

unhappiness..

not even.

more like a downfall.

moments of greatness.

more like a smidge.

even the great ones are fading.

cookies.

surround your work.

tell me.

and just get it over with.

startling noise.

adult content.

feel like sinking.

get the old journal out.

deeper and deeper.

what an abyss.

talking heads.

which one to listen to?

recluse cling.

can't go there.

can't go here.

it's my own business.

i don't want to intrude.

or interject my thought.

automatic response.

i wish you had it.

expectation is ....

azure exterior.

inner melting.

would you like a souvenier?

power nap.

wake up.

tredge through the dark streets.

hop on.

what a wonderful view.

seek through the clouds.

welcome home.

how do i drive again?

heehee.

quick return.

leave your stuff at the table.

lunchroom gossip.

drive back.

unexpected visits.

take off the old.

bag of sweets.

peachy o's.

mini gummies.

hello folks.

mexican deliciousness.

i'm glad your doing well.

cheesy goodness.

turn around.

sonic crazies.

textured hair.

venture in the dark.

come closer.

wakeful daze.

twilight.

unexpected hurdles.

morning coffee.

naughty nurse.

party city fun.

swirl around.

bark choices.

find a space.

why are there so many cats?

public view.

sleep over.

familar red.

bar-bq dreams.

wal-mart is too big.

to navigate.

pumpkin ice cream.

sad goodbyes.

bumpy ride.

a lovely return.

homefeel.

" the bear necessities"

open week.

scrambling around.

consistency in change.

i have no clue as to what you want.

swirling beats.

green cans.

fresh linens.

morning trips.

blinking light.

pulsing through the air.

why won't you respond?

run down the street.

writing notes.

for everything.

and everyone.

say hi to the past.

going home.

it should be great.

morning sun.

rise and shine.

to the best of your abilities.

packing up.

finish your work.

aladdin dreams.

big blue.

stacks of cards.

coffee dreams.

i look forward.

to seeing you all.

watch the swirling crisp golden leaves.

work.

work.

work.

welcome to the second room.

peanut butter dreams.

shared integrity.

late nights.

open whispers.

let me sleep now.

out.

she is indeed bittersweet.

bienvenidos.

pass back the 90's.

hop up the stairs.

let me search your bag.

stifle your lawn.

energy gum is such a waste.

i really don't see all that you see.

would you just trust me?

i'm the same as you.

short z's.

hope up.

out of bed.

run across the street!

pass the eateries.

and the troublesome.

bright white light.

indicating beauty.

what really happens here?

red cheeks.

mustard bag.

green pumps.

stop the sweat.

travel away.

settle for the minus.

it's not a big deal.

turn out a paper.

library noise.

like a cacophany of silence.

and cell phones.

honey nut cheerios.

can anything be ----?

a tight red bow

hm..

log the call.

it was enjoyable.

long nights.

later mornings.

wake up.

fluff the pillow.

target dreams.

wondering around.

halloween costumes.

clear bowls.

red forks.

where did you go?

lost.

off again.

rosetta stone learning.

hippie brand.

it won't last for long.

cold butter.

chatter chatter.

intelligible squeaks.

surrounded by green.

quite literally.

don't give me shit.

stay indoors.

we may have missed that.

dryer sheets.

clean up.

ironing away.

the "kingdom".

green t's.

lay on the lawn.

hello diego.

that is your name.

stare down pablo.

missing flowers.

fluffy cookies.

sure, we can trade.

i'm glad you enjoyed it.

can i ask you a few questions?

hand mixers and yellow gowns

friday.

the week went fast.

time goes quickly.

wake up.

spanish class.

i dont know that.

oh well.

i'll just see you there.

waiting around.

cold drops.

your enthusiasm.

it surprises me.

walk out.

thanks for the laugh.

packing messes.

under-stood worries.

you don't have what i want.

the ceiling is falling.

on my head.

to be quite literal.

browse through the glass.

fall colors.

missing sales.

"happy" light.

rude attendants.

look up at the sky.

feel the shake.

and the chill.

just hop on a plane.

and be.

happy.

dim sighs.

i guess.

i'm astounded by your thoughts.

when did you become this way?

it's far off.

from yourself.

i'm on my cell phone.

good morning..

after many attempts.

hot shower.

cool water.

lead me to the door.

i'm confused.

i don't care anymore.

honey bear.

pay your fines.

habit.

ring.
ring.
ring.

can i ask you a question?

that already was one.

cleaning up.

homemade table.

leave your drama.

out of this.

miss you.

i think.

want to go home.

that would be an adventure.

leap.

cranky days.

it was nice to hear your voice.

ill see you later.

maybe...

granola doesn't mix with laptops

where did i leave off?

shattering glass.

control the insanity.

let us dine.

napping is good.

library daze.

you've lost me.

just tell me it's fine.

and be done with it.

arizona green tea.

with honey of course.

sit around a circle.

i can't focus on your conversation.

flan. bleh.

share your vision.

and your ideas.

but i'm entranced at the moment.

cranky.

yes, let's talk.

orange food.

show me.

indecisive compulsion.

toss the ball around.

chinese at 2.

struck by lightning.

for an instant.

early day.

not much to say.

..yet.

she never stops going.

hm..

some day.

switch the ring.

itchy tags.

high 90's.

that's not too much purple.

thanks for not using red.

inept.

how does the clock turn so fast?

the time has come.

exahustedly yawning.

i'm interested really.

or at least im trying.

why don't you respond?

swamped under a mess.

blue shoes.

blinking light.

apple patch.

handcuffs.

heehee.

bad mail.

why did you even send it?

meditation station.

taking a break.

do not disturb.

a second home.

morning pizza.

let's just forget that week.

that works well for me.

have a good day.

"forces of evil on a bozo nightmare"

hm..

purple folder.

aimless walking.

good morning.

i don't know you.

batman.

sitting around.

calls and more calls.

i don't care to talk.

ring, ring, ring.

i can't deal with you.

get going.

alone.

board the train.

strawberry banana smoothies.

and oatmeal raisin cookies.

it truly is the best lunch around.

flip through the pages.

look ahead.

take a u-turn.

what a beautiful piece of work.

relax the mind.

stop feeding me your whatever.

i'm sorry to do this.

red architecture.

hall dreams.

build my bushel.

all the dark.

thanks for the nice light.

i anjoy the optimism.

and the microwave.

welcome to my red brick nightmare

sunken valley.

blue moon.

missing you.

where the tide lies.

stop disconnecting.

just one of many.

floating in the distance.

come home.

good morning.

i'm glad things are going better.

laundry web.

dizziness.

where does the path lead?

clean the table.

empty the tray.

yummy chocolaty goodness.

hot irons.

smooth.

link to reality.

let's escape to baia.

write this paper.

yellow flashing lights.

small red chairs.

a room of worry.

clock ticking away.

obnoxious noise.

let me just get some sleep.

sorry, it wasn't so optimistic.

let me just poke my head through your window

forgetting the minor choices.

scholarly duty.

in a daze.

i don't follow your logic.

death.

it's okay.

drama.

i'm sick of it.

bad food.

eating out.

delicious eateries.

"dis-harmony."

cvs trips.

creepy houses.

bamboo forests.

new people.

cleaning and cleaning.

posters around.

thanks for the tip.

graceful fall.

soulfull steps.

definitions of self.

really?

missing home.

disappointed in your decisions.

peaceful moment.

underworked.

lost remoteness.

venture into the city.

delve into the paint.

the open facade is all around.

late night snack.

moderate trouble.

no, thank you though.

wakeful exhaustion.

time traveling.

great distance.

so into it.

and not.

keeping at a distant side.

apple dreary.

expendable.

im glad things worked out.

character flaw.

somewhere around here.

certainly not making the most.

mistaken opportunity.

so far.

don't get me wrong.

i'll be more optimistic next time around.

someone else resides here.

The Unedited Past 2: June- August or September rather

June 2, 2007 - Saturday


only in dreams.
Current mood: blank

lalalalalalala.

mini vacation was great.

ice cream with oreo topping.

bubble baths.

oversized furniture.

rocking chairs.

yummy food.

long winding paths.

beautiful flowers.

sunny skies.

it was a nice getaway, but now it's back to everyday.

June 3, 2007 - Sunday


empty gray dresser.
Current mood: indifferent

oh what a day.

white votive candles.

old tees.

blueberry muffins.

jazz music.

yc press conference.

beautiful shoes.

windy conditions.

blackened rooms.

let go of things, the past is not worth it.

June 7, 2007 - Thursday


you should wear a monocle
Current mood: mellow

running errands all the time.

smoldering days.

dinners with the fam.

starbucks adventures.

fruit at whole foods.

naps galore.

i love driving.

caffeine puts me to sleep.

hanging around the doctors.

my tension relaxes me.

identity crisis.

confusion once more.

good thing i have a bff for guidance.

there is nothing that comes close to homemade tortillas.

happy week, when did i become so optimistic?

June 8, 2007 - Friday


im addicted to my toothbrush.
Current mood: calm

crisp pages in my address book.

my yoga mat is red.

mail interests me.

cluttered desk

pink post-its.

bottle of green liquid.

gumby coffee mug.

christmas ornament.

2 pigs.

a deflating balloon.

reading is important.

so is water.

what do you consist of?

Sunday, June 10,2007

just keep the change.
Current mood: awake

its early.

long nap yesterday.

cleaned everything. semi-organized now.

great indian food.

yucky inner feeling of vulnerability.

who knows what that's about?

weird dreams that keep featuring my grandma.

i hate when people expect you to be interesting.

im tired leave me alone.

bff called last night. yay.

must play in the small patch of flowers i call a garden today.

maybe ill visit the lady in my dreams.

i miss my friend greatly.

i love when you find a roll of film that has yet to be developed.

its a nice surprise.

June 10, 2007 - Sunday


my name is luca
Current mood: melancholy

got a 18th birthday cake today.

that's quite a bit early.

starbucks passion tea is good.

catching up with friends is relaxing and hilarious.

i hate pulling weeds.

the office supply stores were frustrating me today.

i saw a true hippie van today.

i need some picture frames.

identity crisis or something.

bleh.

June 13, 2007 - Wednesday


meet me in morocco
Current mood: calm

it's already wednesday. wow.

long days.

menacing traffic.

new people.

blossoming flowers.

complex lies.

starbucks haven.

stupid mosquitos.

pointless papers.

frosty bowls of ice cream.

running errands.

June 14, 2007 - Thursday


"You can't fight in here. This is the war room."
Current mood: sick

early morning.

sunrise was beautiful.

repetitive tasks.

downtown commotions.

on the search for pillows.

multicolored pots.

cereal bowls with chex.

chinese takeout.

Spurs won!!!

drizzling sky.

tomorrow will be busy.

refreshing naps.

feeling sick.

June 16, 2007 - Saturday


Do you have the sillies in your tummy?
Current mood: calm

friday was good.

running errands as per usual.

watched some old home vids. hilarious.

wooden fishes.

copy cats. where does that expression come from anyway?

delicious meatloaf and mashed potatoes.

movies with friends.

early morning thunderstorms.

violent lightning. thunderous clouds.

obsessive vacuuming.

early morning cereal snack.

missed connections.

unwanted thoughts.

looking forward to the rain.

and meeting people yet again.

June 19, 2007-Monday
rude awakenings.
Current mood: tired

rain was enchanting.

cooking was exhausting.

happy fathers day!

food was delicious, if i do say so myself.

spurs celebration.

hot sun beaming down.

crowding excitement.

home again.

bad dreams.

June 18, 2007 - Monday


only you of course
Current mood: content

interesting day.

obsessive cleaning.

finding things you don't even know you have is great.

a touch of gardening.

growing mounds of laundry.

propositions to ponder.

where are you?

worth is so relative.

have to wake up early.

sweet dreams. i hope.

June 19, 2007 - Tuesday


there's honey in my hair!
Current mood: blank

boring day.

i was really cranky this morning.

i've become increasingly aware of a hidden level of stupidity.

or maybe it's just me.

no car....that's limiting.

yummy corn flakes, with no frosting.

good day to catch up on sleep.

"popcorn cereal...i don't think the worlds ready for that just yet" -bff

taking back promises.

hilarious look into the past.

looking forward to tomorrow.

espresso brownies

June 22, 2007 - Friday


sudden downpour of life.
Current mood: calm

time of reflection.

lightning on the windowsill.

plentiful feasts.

starbucks trips.

lemon crumb bar.

misty rain.

tired kids.

sleepless night.

dreams on the couch.

bff has knowledge of boxing kangaroos.

he ate my kudos.

poetry readings.

morning errands.

two cute kiddies.

hot cocoa, spaghetti, popcorn, pizza, oreos galore.

messages on my tummy.

search for sensible shoes.

miserable trip.

friendly gossip.

wonderful week.

June 24, 2007 - Sunday


crosswords and crossroads.
Current mood: drained

errands all around.

slides of life.

crazy love story.

scandalous affairs.

new prints and colors.

friendly conversation.

nap.zzzzzz....

relaxing park.

alien presence.haha.

smelling flowers.

fudge brownie.

dim sum mornings.

awkward looks.

titanic abyss.

bff is profound.

his blogs rule.(even though he stole mine)

friendly gestures.

adventurous thoughts.

excessive giddiness.

painful realizations.

you will soon realize the same.

June 25, 2007 - Monday


the word of the day is: abstruse
Current mood: pessimistic

bad day already.

bad dreams.

beating heart.

cold shivers.

nervous agitation.

bluish gray peak of sunrise.

low numbers on the clock.

flip flopping.

predicted announcement.

going to run errands.

and perhaps catch a nap.

June 26, 2007 - Tuesday


"NO! NO, Becca!"
Current mood: calm

turned out to be a good day yesterday.

calming waters.

running around.

usual errands.

like looking in a mirror.

why do i go against my own knowledge knowing its wrong?

grab the popcorn.

its movie time.

and nap time.

stupid bug bites.

small decisions.

up early yet again.

energized spirit.

trip to the airport.

unseen home videos.

mumbling orders.

oreo cookies without the middle.

two kiddies asleep on the couch.

lovely day.

looking forward to a nice evening.

June 27, 2007 - Wednesday


excuse me while i waddle.
Current mood: blah

late night mumblings.

imaginary pumpkin bread.

photobook. um...

kudos to dad.

laughing at yourself is just like the best thing ever.

backseat giggles.

early morning yoga.

numerous phone calls.

i hate the sound of the ring.

in a grocery store daze.

spaghetti and meatballs.

hot cocoa and cinammon raisin bread.

bff can't log in. im sorry bff.

irridescent blue nailpolish.

bank tellers.

cranky feeling.

losing hours of sleep.

trading comebacks.

possible reunion tomorrow. how exciting.

um yes. i have no desire to blog right now.

June 28, 2007 - Thursday


i forgot my mantra.
Current mood: calm

early morning rain.

torrential storms.

backyard flooding.

the lawn mower is floating.

cold noodles.

returning items.

meddling salespeople.

fresh flowers.

peachy flavor.

cat naps on the couch.

homemade pixie sticks.

beautiful storms.

must read my book.

late night stretch.

purple smocks.

lines of shoes.

good day.

thank you for helping.

July 1, 2007- Sunday

colorful carousel horse
Current mood: calm

oh my.

becoming a contradiction of self.

telltale signs.

stretching lines.

plentiful gossip.

second thoughts.

or third or fourth.

canceled plans.

disapointing hours.

a new line.

careful strategy.

changing skies.

burning candle.

empty boxes.

good july to you.

July 1, 2007 - Sunday


Please don't unbutton that.
Current mood: calm

in the moment.

good day.

MIKESTYLE.

house visits.

self accusations.

charm school dropout.

uncontrolalbe laughing.

awkward looks.

hilarious irony.

that's great.

small community you will never escape.

weird 70's fashion.

heavy books.

matchy jewelry.

watering can.

doughy arms.

leave them alone.

like a praying mantis.

tumultous relationship.

i love it. and hate it.

no, your not a fashion diva.

the carrot with the hair transplants is trying to sell crap.

my bulletin board.

oh my. returning to great aspirations.

i'm certainly not laughing at that.

you should have a talk show.

it would be boring to everyone but you though.

flare of the nostrils.

elbows look weird.

weather changes.

thanks for patting my head.

July 2, 2007 - Monday


my polkadot notebook
Current mood: calm

hmm

morning breeze.

weather channel.

packing for beach.

deposit slips.

thank you notes.

wondering around at target.

tumbler of cranberry juice.

delicious slices of cheese.

waiting game.

silly silly games.

they are getting annoying.

i shall miss you.

July 8, 2007 - Sunday


don't worry, there's a boat for you too.
Current mood: thoughtful

return from the beach.

no parasailing...

horseback riding on the beach.

lazy afternoons.

sunburn.

crazy crowds.

double rainbows.

delicious seafood.

private beach.

perfect sea shells.

stupid henna prints.

eco tour. pet the sea urchin.

oversized stores with pathetic music.

there's a snapshot.

it was enjoyable.

a return home.

laundry days.

people that plague you forever.

lost and forgotten.

can't get away.

looking forward to the new.

new states. new everything.

thanks for everything.

it was good at times.

not so much anymore.

July 9, 2007 - Monday


i thought it said grande on your butt.
Current mood: pissed off

decent day.

oh...until i got pissed off!

things i know:

im looking forward to the new.

i have a lot of anger towards you.

i like how you think i don't have feelings.

i guess i can be erased.

oh well.

there's more out in the world.

to waste my time worrying about you.

so show some initiative

or care

or something

or leave me alone.

i love andie. she's the coolest kid around.



July 11, 2007 - Wednesday


maybe this is our moment.
Current mood: calm

hm..

better days.

thank god.

clearing the past.

mindless chatter.

oprah said "this is the year to change your life"

why was i even watching that show?

i dont even know.

losing material.

new outlooks.

cliche i know.

numerous questions.

delicious chinese food.

security.

dying brakes.

facing your reality.

fortunate happenings.

skipping responsibility.

or accepting it.

i think there's a difference.

open pleasantries.

beautiful iridescent purple flowers.

i hope all is well.

July 13, 2007 - Friday


not so classic after all
Current mood: calm

different really different.

trapped in time.

spiritual high.

euphoric running.

chocolate covered waffle cones.

bitter lime snowman.

sharing gossip.

people watching.

return to Tradition.

deal with the cards your dealt.

friendly faces.

airport daze.

move outside your corner would you.

new patterns.

i don't understand it.

but i don't mind it either.

July 15, 2007 - Sunday


crumbling walls and withering curls
Current mood: distressed

i will not stand for it.

none of this.

broken plates.

stupid metaphors.

i think i've said that before.

reruns just keeping going.

end to start. end to start.

your disingenuous conversation.

its time to take responsibility.

i accept it.

strong character.

a falling heart.

cold exteriors.

its a shame really.

optimism. pessimism. realism. cynicism.

who the hell cares anymore?

i seem to keep flipping.

i can accept the differences.

but a similarity would be nice.

understanding would be nice.

volatile actions.

reinvention.

find some inner strength.

put things into perspective.

avoid distraction.

not to mention negativity.

believe in yourself.

or whatever you need to believe in.

July 24, 2007 - Tuesday


live long and prosper trekkies(ok...and trekkers)
Current mood: calm

lapse of time.

meeting new people.

healing scars.

reliving the past.

oh god.

rainy afternoons.

birthday celebrations.

oodles of noodles.

miss you, as always.

giant question marks hang above.

old news.

so called "compliments"

trips to gruene.

the worrisome.

power to sleep.

not really working.

bad judgement calls.

halls of antonian...need i say more.

the almighty question of forgiveness.

unwanted comments.

dreams of slumber.

preparing for the so-called future.

haven't felt like blogging.

still really don't.

enjoy the rain.

and the music.

set freedom and limitation.

July 27, 2007 - Friday


el rey.
Current mood: contemplative

hmm.

misdirected energy.

anger.

pleasant rainfall.

new experiences.

lost friends.

it doesn't seem to matter.

new recipes.

and ingredients.

listening.

not just hearing.

there's a difference.

talked to the bff....finally!

furthering yourself.

rid of the negative.

new ideas.

a sense of importance of practice.

it seems like a simple idea.

clear everything.

embrace whatever.

i'm not gonna tell you how to live.

i'm just not gonna let you disrupt how i live mine.

morals are funny.

i'll hold myself up to them.

i suppose set some first.

letting go.

it's the only way to move forward.

that's what this is about.

isn't it?

July 29, 2007 - Sunday


"i wish nothing but the best for you both"
Current mood: calm

a full calendar.

sparkling water.

energizing run.

new horizons.

crisscrossing messages.

crashing waves.

ebbing tide.

circus dreams.

the ordinary life of the extraordinary.

evening trips to the grocery store.

peaking into the lighted trays.

missing you.

the thought of you anyway.

clearing out the shelves.

planning the weeks ahead.

new poses.

strengthening the inner self.

sweet fizzy fruit.

addressing problems.

attracted to dark space.

why am i holding back?

i dont really know.

a loose hold.

burning aspirations.

dimmed.

good day.

i'll leave you to it.


July 31, 2007 - Tuesday


99 luftballoons
Current mood: contemplative

i should have known things would end like this.

new house.

new address.

good times.

familar faces.

new coat of paint.

thoughtful posters.

horrific meetings.

humiliating chatter.

laughing and crying.

yells and screams.

no more.

negativity.

don't give me your bullshit.

i've heard far better.

are we friends?

im not really sure.

move on.

it seems like the right thing to do.

the only thing left to do.

sinking depression.

resiliency is key.

indulge in harmony.

don't betray yourself.

glowing screen.

red phones.

easy money.

talking voice.

August 5, 2007 - Sunday


did we just die?
Current mood: calm

running around.

ineligible.

wake up and face the news.

lists upon lists.

long drives.

disco beat.

apple pies.

krispy donuts.

late nights.

lonesome sighs.

jumping on the bed.

room service.

misunderstandings.

flashing exit signs.

early morning showers.

open pools of cool water.

monsterous brownie.

browsing the bookstores.

colorful dresses.

bright lights.

reuniting.

exotic fish.

exciting pyramids.

rainforests, aquariums, and dinosaurs oh my!!

carnival streets.

ferris wheels and boardwalks.

glass tanks.

long night drives.

"insane" traffic.

unexplained occurances.

human stupidity.

pirate voices.

delicious memories.

ice cream with friends.

far off looks.

devastating relationships.

good times.

August 7, 2007 - Tuesday


what are you kids doing in there?
Current mood: amused

waking up late.

for me anyways.

nervous feelings.

waiting games.

miscommunication as always.

seeing old faces.

bustling malls.

back to school time.

sale items.

"that's adorable"

yummy tacos.

comfy towels.

grocery shopping.

cleanup on aisle 5.

opened ice cream.

cookies in cream to be clear.

late nights.

lazy days.

long lunches.

passion fruit tea.

dorm shopping.

climbing ladders.

friendly gentlemen.

going in circles.

hit the target.

bags upon bags.

star trek as always.

root beer floats.

friendly faces.

phone conversations.

face to face.

bright lights.

fast escape.

spaceballs is on.

hope you had a pleasant day!

August 9, 2007- Thursday
the smoking bulimics.
Current mood: calm

New day

Shop till you drop.

Stalking blues.

Switching sides.

New ideas.

Overpowering emotion.

Filled with confusion.

Neon light.

Homecomings.

Fluffy cookies.

Do you see a light?

Hello's soon to be the opposite.

Crocheting dreams.

Capture the moment.

Multitasking.

Bright pink dress.

The art of unpacking.

Wondering the halls.

Good luck charms.

Splitting stories.

Overwhelmed.

Soft yarn.

Green beads.

Loving looks.

Seeing friends.

Orange tint.

Lookalikes.

Dissecting conversation.

Pondering the remains.

Running into the familiar.

Flowering conversation.

"good to see you."

Orb of music.

Repeating the same mistakes.

Surrounding the weeds.

Forced exhaustion.

8:43

August 9, 2007 - Thursday


"twenty-first century’s yesterday"
Current mood: calm

Ignoring the true story.

Uneasy direction.

At a loss for expression.

Shuffling aside.

Why am I holding on?

Seeking to forget.

I guess.

Arrested energy.

Effortless action.

Filled with grief.

And happiness.

All at once.

What do I say?

Anything?

I can't blame it on you.

No carrier.

Yellow notes.

Endless void.

No chatter.

Nonexistent bond.

Careful crossing.


Side glances.

Petty excuses.

Lost time.

Buzzing headache.

No meaning.

Slow hours.


Building anticipation.

Lasting moments.

Careless defeat.

Sighs.

Of joy?

Walking away.

Looking on.

Make a point now.

Before it's too late.

No more. I think.


August 11, 2007 - Saturday


Avoid the pillow, embrace the after-effect
Current mood: blank

ugh...

sometimes i just feel like screaming:

"leave me the fuck alone"

then there's no one to say anything to.

mantra after mantra.

lack of discriminating taste.

apologies for the crudeness.

raw, real, whatever.

write my paper for me.

mistaken accidents.

forgiving memories.

slowing down.

fading to a spec.

grateful for this.

i'm not angry at any divine power.

the naivete of the soul.

what is "type"

repition to no avail.

i believe they call that insanity.

affairs experts.

so what do you do?

forget expectations.

lose vulnerability or something like that.

dissecting your exploration.

i dont think its right.

what do i know?

probably nothing relevant to you.

yeah...i dont know.

August 13, 2007 - Monday


no, im fine. no, im really fine.
Current mood: calm

in the mood

for something lighthearted.

early early morning

impurites raising to the top.

let it go.

aching knees.

minimalism.

followed by long nap.

disco tunes.

lists upon lists.

i want fresh paint.

and pizza.

sitting in the rain.

sharing secrets.

"i have to get out of here."

traveling around.

quick time.

did you know they made mini nilla wafers?

where have i been?

inexperience.

books on tape.

they are really superior.

oh incessant ringing.

maybe someone should just pick up the phone.

nothing on tv.

why does the oxiclean guy do so many infomercials?

theater in the sky.

inpersonations...

no sleep.

cool fan.

traveling home.

everyone is probably still sleeping.

don't blame me, i'm pretty sure i didn't do anything.

thanks mark trail.

August 14, 2007 - Tuesday


"Hey Marty...what happened?"
Current mood: awake

um late night chats.

revelaing tales.

dashed plans.

meeting with the familar.

simple living.

God notes.

old stories.

heard a thousand times.

piercing glances.

making me uncomfortable.

walking around.

aimless search.

speeding escalator.

a need to talk.

more uneasyness.

terrible drivers.

road blocks.

slowing the world.

key lime dreams.

reunions.

black and white classics.

i should really be paying more attention.

consuming needs.

bouncing duck.

missing the old bff.

spelling errors.

pent up energy.

dancing around the room.

like a loser.

I Hate Tuesdays.
Current mood: calm

lazy days.

ruined errands.

self inflicted pain.

saying hello.

refreshing talks.

good old days.

cool ice cream.

cookie time.

watching the dough turn round and round.

mourning for the cat.

long walk.

comtemplation.

buildling anger.

hoping to subside.

good morning.

breaking in.

"witnesses" tales.

black coats and long canes.

Yes, Mr. Rodriguez.

A pizza....or a kite what were you thinking?

flipping through history.

chasing cheese.

"friendly" folks at the H-E-B.

Mulder and Scully rule my world.

funny answers.

i love the blinds.

rainy rainy day.

the end of a list.

embarrasing tidbits.

find yourself.

find your passion.

August 17, 2007 - Friday


Stop poking me with your cane.
Current mood: anxious

goodbye bulimics.

lalala morning.

friendly faces are a norm.

freeing moves.

overanticipation.

haha.

balloons are fun.

so are funny theme songs.

waiting games.

return home.

why am i here?

excuse me, please.

target troubles.

aimless shopping.

you don't have what i'm looking for.

even more waiting.

evil looks.

i'm not sure why.

confusing numbers.

long drives.

empty parking lots.

seemed to be the right medicine.

failing tests.

hello, officer.

grocery store.

familiar face.

impersonations again.

ow..cut.

squabbling back and forth.

as usual.

awesome folks.

i will miss you.

and thanks for all the advice.

long day.

finished my paper.

pizza deliciousness.

disappointing flicks.

ah, freaking out!

August 18, 2007 - Saturday


flashing bulbs and sunken memories.
Current mood: calm

wee hours of the morning.

laughing frivolously.

"that's not what i meant."

6 hour nights.

packing woes.

and unpacking.

collecting your life.

in boxes.

face the challenge.

one big trip.

what to take?

wish it were easier.

break time.

i think.

"tasty" candy.

foreign foods.

acknowledged hello's.

walking around.

h-e-b glow.

tasty teas.

giving in.

adrenaline rush.

glimpsing the life you passed.

probably good.

fun offerings.

missing out. i guess.

"hello, tom"

i will miss you.

thanks for the fortune.

take it easy.

August 22, 2007 - Wednesday


does the rain in spain really stay mainly in the plain?
Current mood: calm

tape. boxes. trunks.

packing greatness.

school days.

turned events.

saying goodbye.

pictures.

waiting around.

listening in.

entertain the mind.

inevitable change.

growing tension.

getting things out.

exchanging gifts.

see you later!

driving around.

silent darkness.

mysterious fire.

turning back.

childhood play.

scrambled voices.

follow my mantra.

letting go.

giving in.

entrancing dance.

end in sighs.

peaceful night.

refreshing morning hours.

please help me.

darkness turned to light.

it really is a show about nothing.

and everything.

August 23, 2007 - Thursday


we should just drop elephants on them...
Current mood: anxious

thanks for the tribute bff.

620.

a new chapter.

defined by unknown.

i'll start with the day.

moving boxes.

stacking arrangements.

funny waitresses.

delicious strawberry pancakes.

wandering around.

stuck in the mud.

hahaha.

watching the birds.

and the non-moving turtle. i forgot to mention that.

excessive vulnerability.

shared space.

moving about.

ring after ring after ring.

don't buy into the hype.

playing with the morals.

a goodbye i guess.

more packing and moving.

it's like your life in a box.

sad moments with bff.

we will go to baia one day.

just to see what language is used.

thank you a. sharon for the lovely gifts.

g-ma, you aren't dying.

years of "good times"

intense chocolate cake.

snap out of it.

i will miss you terribly.

thank you for the years of friendship.

and mutual loathing of many things.

and the recent sharing.

i mean, scrabble, i still don't believe it.

i'm just going on a long vacation.

you are always welcome to join me.

August 25, 2007 - Saturday


welcome to our courtyard.
Current mood: calm

1600 miles later.

arkansas.

clinton library.

tennessee.

graceland.

let us rest.

virginia.

maryland. i didn't even know that was there.

d.c.

welcome to the city.

check in.

hot showers.

sleepless nights.

welcome home.

orange bins.

saying hello.

boxes upon boxes.

matching sets whats that about?

share a meal.

orient yourself.

hot day.

down time.

HOYA....SAXA!!!

oh goodness.

meetings.

bunny bunny is just stupid.

ice pieces.

let the chips fall where they may.

hall meetings.

chocolate fountains.

large inflatable monkey.

his name is francis.

card games.

tootsies.

texan jokes.

ugh.

my take on things.

must let go.

i will miss you.

i wish you the best.

but i love it here.

goodnight to all, or morning rather.

August 28, 2007 - Tuesday


"where are you from?"
Current mood: distressed

hard times.

depression.

lightening up.

up and down.

back up and down.

tears streaming.

breaking heart.

strands of people.

useless.

repeating thoughts.

walking around.

not going anywhere.

breathtaking views.

decoration.

feel like home.

you are a human being.

act like one.

look to others.

books and more books.

who has the money for all that?

ring, ring, ring, ring...

familiar tales.

diversified.

keeping quiet.

being cranky.

sorry if i've offended you.

i miss you.

i love you.

familiarity is gone.

i don't have anything to prove to you.

i'm not like you.

by any means.

pissing off others.

it's not necessarily bad.

chattering girls.

swirling days.

sinking feelings.

.....

September 1, 2007 - Saturday


"-they’re transcending the bullshit"
Current mood: blah

hah.

18.

what a waste of youth.

unexpectedness.

lonliness.

early mornings.

late nights.

no sleep.

where are you going?

what are you doing?

i'm not all that interested.

actually.

pop your popcorn.

read your book.

do whatever the hell it is you do.

i'll be here.

fixing myself around your bullshit.

looking for the way out.

creating the cynical perspective.

even more so...

if that's possible.

squeaky ducks.

beautiful red roses.

heavy boxes.

thanks for your help.

by the way.

typing away.

good memories.

stop lying to yourself.

and everyone around you.

why don't people know how to do that?

walk around.

aimlessly even.

discover a world.

no pleasantries.

just sounds.

come back here.

you know i won't.

or maybe i will.

what do you care?

September 4, 2007 - Tuesday


i don’t know where my mind is going.
Current mood: calm

reading.

i really don't know what it's saying.

so lost.

skip the library.

kiss the steps.

chipotle deliciousness.

laundry confusion.

hah. oh kids, learn to do your laundry.

fuzzy towels.

late night movies.

steal the white door.

wait impatiently.

brown arches.

prayerful silence.

hello, francis.

nice of you to join me.

box of temptation.

waiting.

and waiting.

i can't see you.

moment of insanity.

except not really.

early nights.

tennis tv.

monday morning.

thanks for the foil.

morning being afternoon.

ice cream breakfast.

keep me away.

why are you calling on me?

sitting alone.

it's peaceful.

inflexibility.

sheets keep moving.

i try not to wake you.

miss you.

as always.

but stuck.

in a mind of place.

The Unedited Past:February- May that is

Wednesday, February 07, 2007
the day
What my best friend thinks of my day?
- likes that I got out at 11
- makes fun of me for sleeping with my sponge bob blanket
- lets me eat a milkshake for dinner
- laughs at me over the phone
- listens to a cool rendition of my favorite childhood song
- mentions odd things from the past
- is my best friend forever!!!!

Monday, February 19, 2007
shoes, bubbles and more

hm...
so today was mediocre at best, but the rest of the weekend was pretty awesome.
many new pairs of shoes....yay!
pretty new dress ill never wear....yay!
petting zoos....yay!
largest boot ever made....yay!
and finally girl scout cookies- the end of many new years resolutions im sure.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007
so...not my day 
Current mood: blah
today was just not a good day for me. stupid people keep frustrating me with their stupid little comments. im trying not to be too pissed off...but all this shit is just so draining. oh well.

Wednesday, February 28, 2007
the evening...

eating chex, on the phone with my best friend, reading articles on msnbc.
the articles intrigue me with their probing look at today's society and all that accompanies it.
the chex are good. they are corn chex, but which are better corn or rice chex?they have noticably different tastes. the corn chex have a stronger taste while the rice chex are more subdued. ill never make up my mind.
my dads watching little miss sunshine downstairs. that was a good movie. i enjoyed the hilarity of it all.
my new picture is quite representative of me if i do dare say.
my best friend is silent.
im going to go wait for katie to bring me some ice cream after this long day.

Sunday, March 04, 2007
intention

things on my mind...
it was a beautiful day to be in new braunfels
everyone is bipolar
economics is confusing
permanent marker doesnt come off my skin
chocolate fudge ice cream bars are addicting
im questioning the existence of karma
today, i like the post office and mail, kites, cleaning, red, orange mechanical pencils, and random driving
thats all.

Tuesday, March 06, 2007
ill be returning to my shell now thank you

revelations from the day:
i repeat patterns only with different people
incessant whining/laziness pisses me off
karma is non-existent
some people at subway need to be taught to make sandwiches
chocolate ice cream bars are addicting once again
taking my grandma to the grocery store takes forever
studying for economics is overrated
i cant wait to talk to my best friend
i wish i was at the red hot chili peppers concert right now

Thursday, March 08, 2007
weird kid: go away!

sping break is starting this week. im really excited to be able to spend time with my best friend!!woohoo!
this has been a long week and i really dont know what to say. im really glad that its over.
pilar is not a spanish verb.
covering library books is relaxing.
becca's voice is not made for karaoke.
dead silence looks like a stupid movie.
juvies is a "powerful" show....
i like getting mail.
i checked out three books today.
im not looking forward to writing my english paper about hamlet and his problem. quite frankly, i have enough problems of my own.
oh, and yes i cannot believe they are making a teenage mutant ninja turtles movie although im sure i will be sitting in a movie theater at some point watching it...
that's all.

Saturday, March 10, 2007
there's a multipurpose room in my dreams...

woke up to bad news.
yesterday was fun. had bubble drinks and fell asleep on mary's couch. i hate being sick.
i hope the day gets better. its finally spring break.
im glad i dont have to write that hamlet paper this week.
eddie izzard is hilarious.
i need to get a manicure.
i had a brownie for breakfast.
hm...

Monday, March 12, 2007
peach flavored water.

today was a good day.
music and lyrics was pretty funny. i enjoyed the 80's refrences that no one else in the theatre seemed to be laughing at. i feel sorry for every one hit wonder or person who has had to participate in a stupid vh1 show.
bass pro shop makes me want to become a hunter and a much more outdoorsy person although im not sure why. its like it has me in some random trance everytime i walk in.
boerne was calm today. i had fun. yay for oversized chairs and overly decorated stores.
ice cream made me think of the summer.
random driving makes me happy. i wish gas was cheaper however id feel better if i didnt know that i was destroying the environment.
i woke up to a very strange ominous dream this morning. i cant figure out just what it is supposed to mean. i suppose i will just file it away in the back of my mind.
it is raining. i love the rain. but as much as i love the rain i cant help but think that it is spring break and a little sunlight wouldnt kill mother nature now would it?
i dont know what tomorrow will bring. perhaps the zoo who knows...

Wednesday, March 14, 2007
avery jane wilcox and other characters

today was a fun day. i must say the conversation strayed a bit out there.
bubble drinks are delicious, but their components resemble other things apparently.
one must arrive at the zoo early if they have the intention of avoiding other people.
the holy spirit is not a squid. im pretty sure it has never been incarnated in said form.
the rules of the blockbuster corporation are rather stupid. im renting a stupid video not buying a car.
my bff does not watch where he is walking.
my other bff uses her phone to ask questions to god.
"fluffy" cookies seem to be a bit of a hit.(although that is not their intended title)
i hope i get driven somewhere tomorrow.
garlic bread and pizza are delicious.
the rifleman is one tv addiction i hope to be able to break my dad of.
star trek: voyager was clearly better with seven of nine and without kes.
i have a craving for a glass of tea and a phone call.
p.s. maryanne's a bitch

Friday, March 16, 2007
breakfast in america

today was quite fun.
kites are pretty awesome.
streamers on kites make it even better.
mallard duck kites should die.
im addicted to bubble drinks.
today was a cold day outside.
i saw my favorite waiter.
weird old men creeped me out a little today.
im really not sure how many boxes of chex's ive eaten lately.
the wind makes it hard to eat lunch outdoors.
i love spending the day with my bff.

Sunday, March 18, 2007
a fizzy cocktail

the spring break has come to an end and i am excited for the long awaited end to the school year.
however, i have realized that i am going to miss a lot of people.
i am happy it is going to rain this week.
people who have intrigued me lately: Bill Richardson, Karl Lagerfeld, Margaret Cho, Al Gore, Eddie Izzard, George Stephanopolous, Mira Nair.
i love gardening and flowers.
i love doing my laundry.
i love buying random clothes.
i love indian food.
i am looking forward to dinner tomorrow.
i need to start reading more.
i have made the realization that i need to drink more water.
in two weeks, ill know my opportunities for next year and thats keeping me up at night.
jelly beans.

Thursday, March 22, 2007
people's overconfidence pisses me off

yes, i suppose i could tell you about the day i had and everything, but that pretty much says it all.

March 26, 2007 - Monday
charlie the armadillo

i havent blogged in quite some time. most of my blogs are quite superficial and contain no real thought or feeling i would say. i never seem to want to cross that line in writing.
today was a good day.
a happy 20th birthday to my best friend in the world bernard!!!
so far, i have been accepted into boston university, brandeis university and trinity. yay.
i have been having very vivid dreams lately.
i have a very busy week ahead of me.
i am going to try to make time for people this week.
i enjoyed the rain today, although i must say it was a bit violent. im glad we got out of school a little early though.
i want to go camping.
ive decided that it is inevitable that i will end up at prom.
people have made me laugh today.
i am not going to eat any chex for the rest of the week.
im going to read the weather report now....

March 27, 2007 - Tuesday
the polar ice caps are melting.
today as a day was generally good. this week, however, is turning out to be very stressful.
i am tired of trying to please everyone.
i am overextended.
i am not going to obey your orders.
i love my flowers. (you can see them in my pics)
i need some relaxation.
i need a new planner.
i hope i do good on my calculus test tomorrow.
i want to see old friends.
i am tired of hearing about immorality.
im going.

March 29, 2007 - Thursday
life's too short
Current mood: determined

so, i didnt get into harvard. i cant say that im not incredibly depressed because that would be a lie. im disappointed, but its not the end of the world. everything happens for a reason. unfortunately, only 9% of applicants were admitted. so knowing that there are roughly 20,000 kids out there that feel the same way that i do tonight makes me feel better. im not really sure how things will end up, but thanks to everyone who tried to make me feel better today. i appreciate it. i am going to try to stay as optimistic as possible this week.
yay for chocolate and care packages and pretty flowers that brighten the day.
yay for not having cried yet.

March 30, 2007 - Friday
i forgot, my mistake

you dont give a damn.

and we owe nothing to each other.

April 1, 2007 - Sunday


ms. america and...
Current mood: cheerful

this weekend was really good. book sale on saturday went really good. dinner with the family for bff's birthday was awesome. for once, everyone was in a good mood and was able to stay relatively calm. i hope he likes his penguin kite.

strangely, i probably just had the best weekend ive had in a long time.

i, one of the most indecisive people ever, must make a decision within the next 30 days. where to go? brandeis, boston college, boston university, georgetown, (upenn), trinity???? no clue. this is going to take me a while.

i love how flowers make me happy. my pink daisies are the best.

im ready to become even more organized that i already am.

my arms hurt from carrying all those boxes of books yesterday.

im refreshed for school tomorrow.

i want to see my friends....my real friends.

live with imagination. walk to the edge. listen hard. practice wellness. play with abandon, laugh. choose with no regret. continue to learn. appreciate your friends. do what you love. live as if this is all there is. - mary anne radmacher

April 2, 2007 - Monday


pink promenade creme.
Current mood: mellow

what a good day!

people at school make me laugh.

blue moon is in my head.

i cant make a mousetrap car to save my life.

my contacts aren't working and i had to squint all day long.

im pretty sure that the planned parenthood isn't "evil " but thats just my opinion.

i love how i could write anything in english and i always seem to get an "a"

im totally confused as to where to go next year.

i hope i do well on my economics essay test tomorrow. i find it really sad that 1/3 of our class is failing something.

i totally didn't realize that easter was this week. lent went by really fast this year.

thanks to sarah for the cracker jacks and gustavo for the sushi, it made lunch delightful.

reflection for the day: ignoring things is not the way to solve anything.

April 3, 2007 - Tuesday


wilting flowers like wilting days.
Current mood: mellow

hmm.. today was a pretty good day.

after a little misunderstanding i ended up at mary's for the afternoon. we had fun blowing bubbles and drinking tea. it was a fun time.

im watching the credits from annie hall. i love how neurotic and absolutely brilliant woody allen is.

im really excited for this week.

im looking forward to the show on thursday. im also interested in the new 2 story taco place. it intrigues me that there is such a place.

i hope i get indian food on friday.

i want to have an easter egg hunt on sunday, no matter how juvenille it is.

all the news i read today was really weird. i couldn't find anything serious that i care to read.

i did really well on my economics quiz and test today, but i fear that i will fail my calculus quiz tomorrow. i am not a very good math person.

i need to stop myself from eating so much chocolate.

i seem to be getting more and more frustrated with people and its making me upset.

word for the day: serendipitous

April 4, 2007 - Wednesday


no new messages.

today was a pretty great day. i know i keep saying that, which is odd seeing as how cynical i am.

i did really good on my economics test and my theology quiz, not all that sure about the calculus though. i hate mathematics.

i get indian food on friday YAY!

im having like repeated dejavu right now.

today reminded me of the day i got cinnamon in my hair. thanks to my bff for pouring it in my hair and it taking like 2 weeks to get out. grr bff!!!

i had a delicious bagel with cream cheese after school today.

im very tired. i took like a two hour nap today. it was refreshing.

thank god theres only a half a day of school left this week.



byebye

April 6, 2007 - Friday


thank you for smoking.
Current mood: cold

so these past two days have been pretty good.

thank god for half a day yesterday and no school today.

got bubble drinks with my bff yesterday and finally tried avocado. i must say i was pleasantly suprised.

then had a delicious meal at whataburger.

then i got to go to lanier to pick up some stuff from my aunt. i must say, however, that i was a bit overwhelmed as it was passing period and i was just standing there in my uniform.

went to see the cordials last night. they were pretty good.

i learned i succumb to temptation and peer pressure perhaps a bit too easily .

a kid named thompson doesnt have my favorite song on their cd. boo!

found a very nice lamp today.

saw blades of glory, but i dont know it wasn't great. a bit disappointing.

didn't get indian food today, but probably gonna go to greune tomorrow. so yay!!!

i should probably finish my paper for english tonight.

bye bye!

April 7, 2007 - Saturday


she's a dinosaur
Current mood: contemplative



lost weeks. lost days. lost afternoons. and soon we will both be gone.

i can't think of anything more relevant to say today.

April 8, 2007 - Sunday


wait, why are we at jims?
Current mood: calm

happy easter to everyone!

today was a really good day.

ate a nice meal with some family. shared some interesting stories.

i love apple pie.

i hate being blamed for things that aren't my fault.

went to cvs and bought some marshmellows because they ran out of peeps. ive never seen any store ever run out of peeps. although, it was easter.

this was probably my first easter without an easter egg hunt or cascarones being cracked on my head, but thats what fiesta is for.

went mini golfing with my bff. most hilarious time mini golfing ever. it was so so incredibly cold out.

i learned that my bff doesn't understand the concept of mini golf.

went to jims for some breakfast food and dessert.

created my first myspace group today. thats exciting.

i hope the week goes well for everyone.

i have been left in a good mood. its frightening, yes i know.

April 10, 2007 - Tuesday


giant blue slacks and orange lace...
Current mood: tired

today was blah.

school was boring.

i cant stand those stupid theology talks.

yay for celebrating Gustavo's birthday. i enjoyed the cake and cookies.

i ate a lot of food today.

i was in the library a lot today.

i talked to the woman in pink polka dots.

i enjoyed a nice little break in the hot tub.

i fell asleep after school.

im getting nervous about my trip to boston/washington dc.

i feel left out.

maybe im just spacing out too much.



that's all.

p.s.- bff i love you!!!!

April 12, 2007 - Thursday


to the masses

you are no enemy and yet you are no friend.

April 14, 2007 - Saturday


wait, whats the "c" word?
Current mood: blank

im oh so cynical.

i had a good day.

it was a beautiful day outside.

gruene is tons of fun.

my bff is spending the night.

dim sum in the morning!!!!

my aunt is funny about cars.

my dad watches more star trek than anyone else i know.

i talk in my sleep.

blah blah you.

April 15, 2007 - Sunday


you make me

want to cry.

April 16, 2007 - Monday


your head's too big
Current mood: cranky

thoughts from the day:

today was tiring.

i hate doing nice things for people and then getting my head bit off still.

i love the airport.

i get confused at the airport.

graduation is stressing.

i love the color of my deep purple scarf.

i miss my bff.

i don't know what the english test is over tomorrow.

im addicted to water.

the library makes me happy.

the shooting today at va. tech was quite depressing and shocking. such a horrible tragedy.

my desk is a horrible mess.

your head's so big and tall.

April 18, 2007 - Wednesday


la vie en rose
Current mood: calm

hmm.

today was a great day.

the play was awesome. it was quite funny.

got a waffle cone from baskin robbins. i love the chocolate dipped ones.

my bff never seemed to be awake today.

i just finished packing for my trip.

im addicted to water. seriously.

retail therapy= good thing.

im nervous about my trip.

i hope everyone has an awesome week/weekend.

im looking forward to next friday. kinda.

that english test was just plain stupid.

i love my shoes.

my desk is still a mess.

lala.

April 22, 2007 - Sunday


home again
Current mood: tired

ive just returned home and am very very tired.

im sure i will detail my travels later.

in the meantine all i have to say is that i missed my bff terribly(fyi your moving with me, i hope you know that) and i am looking forward to a great week.

i must now go and catch some sleep.

bye bye

April 27, 2007 - Friday


keasbey nights.
Current mood: calm

so, im really sick. bleh fever and congestion.

yesterday, went to the battle of the bands with my bff. it was really fun, but it got a little chilly. i enjoyed the fireworks.

ive learned that following other people when your driving and you dont know where you are going will eventually lead you to where you need to be.

im glad we have today off. i have so many things to get done.

i still haven't decided where to go to school. im inclined towards bu, but then again georgetown is awesome as well. i dont know.

tonight's prom, which im not all that excited about. dinner beforehand should prove to be quite interesting, however.

i keep smelling this coconut lime verbena shampoo because the scent is reminding me of something from the past, but i just cant remember what. i hate that.

im going, not much more to say for the day.

April 30, 2007 - Monday


"that kills me!"
Current mood: tired

today was a good day.

i finally decided to go to georgetown. im getting really nervous/excited about moving away now.

im still sick and i can't stop coughing. bleh.

i shop too much for my own good. well i dont know.

i enjoyed the thunderstorms today. they put me in a very relaxing mood.

my bff sent me the most hilarous message today. i enjoyed it greatly.

i don't understand why some people are being so difficult.

i love the library, i can't even explain why.

i think when i get older, im gonna be one of those ladies that carries peppermints everywhere she goes.

i had the most wonderful snickers bar for breakfast this morning, thanks to my incessant nagging of joel.

i want some mac and cheese.

May 3, 2007 - Thursday


the soles of my shoes.
Current mood: restless

today was quite an interesting day to say the least. it was probably one of the more emotional days that i've had in quite some time.

senior lunch really hit me hard. those of you who know me, know that i tend not to be that emotional of a person in public. im usually really good about keeping things on the inside and whatnot, but reading those letters today just broke me. i think that coupled with the crying girls at my table just added to a very emotional moment. it wasnt so much what was in the letters, but the realization that everything is going to change. im going to miss my friends so much that i fear i can not even put my feelings into words. i love them all so much.

then i had a nice little car ride back to school with katie and then i left to go to my grandmas. picked my bff/cousin up and we all went to luby's for old times sake. i can't say that the food was all that good, but just being there was a nice moment.

spent some more time at grandmas and then traveled off to an ice cream shop for a poetry reading with my bff. it was really fun. the ice cream was delicious and pretty cheap and the poetry was so fun. people told some pretty interesting poems and stories, i have to say i admire their strength.

im home now and im feeling very antsy. i hope all is well with everyone.



becca

May 6, 2007 - Sunday


domino effect.
Current mood: calm

hm. so the weekend was pretty fun.

first friday is full of interesting people.

random meals are great.

gardening is relaxing.

spiderman 3 was pretty fun as was waiting in line for it.

hot fuzz was hilarious.

building cardboard boats is just a stupid idea.

so yes, the weekend was a lot of fun. i am very glad that I only have pretty much one more week of school left.

im over some peoples arrogance and incredible lack of thoughtfullness and that's all im going to say.

May 8, 2007 - Tuesday


jamaican mumblings.
Current mood: indifferent

today was not a good day.

there are some positives that came out of it though:

i love those pizza roll things(thanks katie)

my bff is hilarious.

i took an incredibly long nap today.

i love the library.

i love my car, even though it needs to be washed.

i think im going to enjoy a nice bubble drink tomorrow.

May 9, 2007 - Wednesday


the naked dog.
Current mood: relaxed

went to cheesy janes today with my bff.

saw one of the worst waitresses ever.

sat on the roof.

hurt my finger on some cactus.

watched tv with the family.

went to my aunts house and helped make dinner.

learned about sauna suits.

im really tired, stupid english ap tomorrow.

i need to clean my room.

i love the new vaccuum cleaner.

im really glad that its raining, it's making me happy and relaxed.

May 10, 2007 - Thursday


cough cough
Current mood: peaceful

today was good.

ap tests are stupid and pointless.

i enjoy chocolate covered raisins.

i love starbucks lemon bars.

spending time with friends is always fun.

i saw half a sky of ominous clouds and the other half filled with sunshine and then a sudden lightning bolt down the middle. it was awesome.

smoke makes me cough.

writing thank you notes is fun.

there was the most beautiful rainbow ever today on the way home.

haha i love you even though i hate you.

May 13, 2007 - Sunday


chocolate frosty please
Current mood: calm

i can't believe that monday is the last day of school.

the weekend has gone fairly well.

i am glad that i like to try new foods.

there are so many movie i have yet to see.

i want a cat again.

my aunt makes the best waffles.

popcorn shouldn't ever be over-buttered.

klondike bars are just way too much.

i can't understand how some people can sleep for half a day.

i really need to work on my knowledge of the spanish language.

the whole foods store intrigues me.

the borders was extremely understaffed today.

happy mothers day i suppose.

bye bye for now.

May 14, 2007 - Monday


in knots
Current mood: tired

so today was my official last day of high school. thank god.

had an enjoyable day.

its sad to leave some people...others not so much.

i got my first college assigment today which i found rather ironic seeing as how it was my last day of high school. i probably should have just waited to get the mail until tomorrow.

im looking forward to a nice couple of days before graduation practice and all.

ive decided that the honor cords or whatever they are called are pretty ugly, but when you wait four years to wear them i guess it doesnt really matter.

i had a lot of junk in my locker today, which was odd because im usually so organized.

i took a nice little nap after school, but im still really tired.

i dont have much else to say for the day.

May 15, 2007 - Tuesday


iridescent cake
Current mood: restless

summer vacations going good.

the weather is beautiful outside.

the stars are nice to look at.

i hate shopping for perfume.

i cant make a decision about anything ever.

im looking forward to tomorrow.

light bulbs intrigue me.

its' very sad to see what some people just can't accept. happiness is the only thing that matters. i can't really say much else for the day.

where the hell is my bff???

May 16, 2007 - Wednesday


love love me do
Current mood: content

an absolutely beautiful day.

lying under the warm azure sky.

diving in the placid waters.

watching the clouds drift carefully by.

smell the cool scent of "mountain breeze"

plant your hands in the rocky earth.

how utterly pathetically poetic it all is.

May 18, 2007 - Friday


wait, who's in china?
Current mood: sleepy

today was a collection of very nice little events.

went to school for graduation practice which was boring and stupid. bleh!

got some delicious bread...i love cranberry almond!

unfortunately i got into my first car accident today. i was rear ended and my bumper is very sad.

i love my haircut. its much better.

i hate when people can't figure out where they want to eat...mostly because that's what im like.

ska explosion was a lot of fun tonight....

i saw a t-shirt with a skanking tampon that looked hilarious

i approach strangers.

i give into peer pressure that isnt even really there so i guess im giving into myself.

i saw a girl that looked like a wannabe courtney love and popeye was playing on the tv which was quite addicting.

i love watching people its funny.

May 19, 2007 - Saturday


look....it's olive oil
Current mood: uncomfortable

i spent the majority of today watching movies.

i had a piano audition thing today which i did fairly good at.

theres something wrong with me. i keep sleeping a lot.

i need to find a job for the summer.

i can't believe graduation is already tuesday.

not too much going on today, just getting stupid things done.

i am paranoid about driving now, hopefully it will go away soon.

so tired.

May 22, 2007 - Tuesday


my cat has nine lives
Current mood: okay

its been a good last couple of days.

so many errands to run.

it's funny how some things stay the same.

baccalaureate was boring.

there were some wonderful rainstorms yesterday.

graduation was exciting. i suppose.

i believe more and more each day that there are some people that are only meant to be in your life for a specific period.

borders is a nice place to just wonder around.

i got very lucky today with sales.

my family is funny with each other. i love them so much.

a thanks to my bff for being the greatest person ever.

congratulations class of '07.

May 23, 2007 - Wednesday


right lane exit only
Current mood: hopeful

today was a great day.

bought some awesome new curtains. i love them.

exchanged presents with friends.

got the greatest coffee mug ever.

i love subway.

took a wonderful nap.

hung out at starbucks. had part of a toffee bar.

beautiful breezy weather.

delicious food at tong's thai.

now i have to do laundry and pack. i get to go to dallas tomorrow and it is going to be great. i can't wait to get out for a couple days.

i have a tummy ache. blah. excitement.

May 26, 2007 - Saturday


sterling white linen
Current mood: peaceful

just retured from a wonderful trip to the dallas/fort worth area.

marvelous, calming rain storms.

delicious ravioli.

pouncing in puddles.

random bottles of chocolate milk.

waking up to room service.

hours of "friends".

shopping galore.

new shoes and idiot salespeople.

completely awesome aquarium that is like a mini rainforest.

penguins and panthers and stingrays oh my!

fat pigeon talking to my bff.

4 chesse mac and cheese.

the best modern art museum ever.

multi tiered water gardens.

chocolate turtles and banana cream pie.

ICED tea.

what a wonderfully fun adventure.

May 27, 2007 - Sunday


from the desk of bernard ruxford peabody
Current mood: restless

you shouldn't spend all that you have.

you can't get everything you want.

you will never be satisfied with what you have.

be generous and compassionate.

enjoy simplicity.

May 28, 2007 - Monday


little maids all in a row.
Current mood: calm

beautiful bouquet of flowers.

wonderful collections.

old friendly faces.

upbeat optimism.

clean and organized spaces.

horrible headaches.

long naps.

your not around, but it's okay.

May 31, 2007 - Thursday


"the trouble with me is you"
Current mood: mellow

long days.

starbucks trips.

hot summer sun.

lack of lemon bars, however.

taking notes.

hot fudge sundaes at sonic.

the best bean and cheese tacos.

friendly exchange students.

yay for tree hugging.

looking forward to my trip tomorrow.

friendly faces make me feel like things are off.

lovely shoes.

missing friends.