rest in peace.

i curl everything.

She still wouldn't wash my hair!!!!!

dangerously close.

lost connection.

oh my.

i can't believe i've been blaming myself.

for this long.

that is just vaguely hilarious.

and stupid.

on my part.

i think i shall stop with that now.

you will have to share some of the guilt.

yes i think that's right.

oh la dee.

leave me alone.

because i really don't want to talk.

or hear you.

i shall watch.

and wait.

and perhaps catch a giggle.

um.

dan.

wtf?

it's called mobile blogging.

and you invented it.

so gotta stop with all the working.

i'm gonna faint there.

so much to do.

all the time.

put on your new shirt.

and drink in the heat.

or the rain.

whatever it is thats going on there.

i'm not all that positive.

i haven't been keeping up.

sry.

dan your 22.

how crazy!

all the abrevs.

i love em.

i can't stand life w/o.

prob should stop that.

i have such a shopping knack.

it's genetic.

i'm almost positive.

someone.

change my paypal password.

god knows i can't afford much more.

pop corn.

and ginger ale.

nothing more could be perfect.

clash of pink and blue.

bruised.

from the happenings.

please just get me through it.

failure.

after failure.

bad feelings.

for a week now.

how lame.

i should make better choices.

duh?!?!

the best.

the worst.

it all happened.

i don't care for it.

one bit.

not one bit.

except for the good stuff.

which was like sweet lemonade.

and grapefruit juice.

the pink sequins.

and white silk.

the loveliness of it all.

muffled pleasantries.

it's not much to be said.

for your glamorous outings.

i really haven't the taste for them.

but enough about you.

because it really is.

as bouli can tell you.

all about me.

little walks.

and stifled breaths.

i can't feel my chest at all.

except for what lies above it.

the feeling is usual.

except this time im staring at your yellow frames.

and trying to get my way back home.

there i can follow my mood.

and take a chill.

smoothing beads.

and pretty little pink roses.

it's all meant to make a different atmosphere.

of sorts.

i can't feel comfortable.

in this costume.

because it's not where i should be.

you have such a low opinion of me.

i really can't blame you.

but we really don't know each other too terribly well.

candies.

and sweets.

purples and grays.

they make my day.

i am returning to me.

slowly but surely.

i find myself there again.

it wasn't the best persona.

but it was far "better" than this irrationality.

love to you.

taste of old.

Harvey Danger Flagpole Sitter

the days go by.

so what will we do today?

oh nothing but sit around and be merry of course.

i think it's wise that we continue this tradition.

i shall make the cookies.

and spring them along to you.

fluffy as they be.

last day in the city.

luminaria lights.

urban 15.

change the scenes.

oh you crazy religious nuts.

i don't want to fear god.

that's nonsensical.

heehee.

the four amigos.

are together for once.

that's new.

let's ride the ride.

and cross the streets.

repeatedly.

it's cold.

glow in the dark.

like a glow-worm.

uncomfortable weather.

flame of light.

flashing colors.

and patterns.

it kinda sets you in a maze.

so i'll go home.

and you meet me there.

once you leave.

i feel empty.

and upset.

i need to listen to myself.

i will next time.

i don't know how.

but i will.

i just want to know.

what's in your head?

movies.

the circus of show.

i will remember that for weeks.

you will too.

bean and cheese.

so beautiful.

airport meltdown.

literally.

i finally got in though.

and figured it all out.

the next few weeks are going to be hell.

i'm still jittery.

and not all that in my element.

i'll check on that.

eventually.

Nineties chic

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it's like a sundial.

i wish i had use for it.

the u and n keys aren't working very well.


they must be upset at something.

tossing back and forth.

in a web of sheets.

i'll just sleep on the couch.

for a little while.

except i won't sleep.

just kinda lie there in my snuggie.

SNUGGIE!!!

it's uncharacteristically cold.

and rainy.

it's really not all that fun.

i don't have proper apparel at home.

for the low forties.

this place is so different.

it is funny to come back to.

note to self: find an umbrella.

i probably should be doing some of my work.

but i won't until i get back to school.

i already miss you.

and i'm not even gone.

are you ready to fight the british empire?

...uh no.

hah.

long nights.

longer mornings.

how blah this has been.

not that i haven't enjoyed it.

because i have.

strangely enough.

its one of the better times.

i'll get in my car.

and park illegally.

lunch box.

you certainly are known.

austin traffic.

is stupid.

i hate those streets.

with great fervor.

so this is what its like here.

happy not to be a part of it.

in the living aspect.

i do enjoy the visiting though.

heehee.

oh you silly religious nuts.

why do you anger me so?

your avoidance of any issue.

or question being posed.

unless it prescribes to your practiced answers.

i better get going.

because i don't want to be late.

so unfortunately tired.

something borrowed.

its horrid.

why must you do this?

i think its best.

if i reside where i am.

and leave you to your little world.

i would hope that you aren't counting on anything.

because it's all a big game anyway.

and the other.

let us please stop with this.

i thought this was supposed to be gone.

by now anyway.

how much longer?

no, really.

i need to relax.

yes. yes that's it.

because i love you too...

"It's Cool"

NO, NO it really isn't.

the use of caps should underscore the meaning.

really i mean who do you think you are?

what was i thinking?

but no.

as was said.

'you put too much pressure on yourself'

it's true enough.

and why won't you answer my fucking texts.

don't worry everyone. different person.

not everyone just the two people who read this.

you know what i'm saying.

i'm just going to put on a face.

but it's not the same one i used to have.

i've realized i want different.

no i deserve different.

more.

it's funny.

what a good influence in your life will do.

and how much it just changes your view.

of what it is that you are doing.

this really should be more expressive.

and upsetting.

but i'm not even surprised anymore.

we all know the truth.

hell we've all said the truth.

but it was brushed under the carpet eventually.

under the sofa with all the cereal bowls.

jesus i still can't believe you used to do that.

you really wouldn't do that now.

thank god.

we are all so different.

from the 10 year benchmark.

i'm done.

there is no more that you can say.

to me at this point.

you just need to go away.

and not expect any different from myself.

i'm tired.

exhausted in fact.

drained of my energy.

i hope you've at least put it to good use.

i shall be home tomorrow.

thank goodness.

if only i could get through the rest of today.