more than sixteen candles.

hello.

week of february.

long days.

relax and rest.

forget everything else.

thats going on.

and yet it still is.

always there.

you aren't really saving the world.

but your effort is admirable.

i need a new space.

although ive made this one my own.

buy the book and read all about it.

low scores and miserable math.

it wasn't too effecting.

although it made me scream.

read the wrong pages.

skip the time.

it wouldn't have been worth it anyway.

beautiful bursts of color.

and lines.

i kinda love that i hate you.

and hate that i love you.

its backwards i know.

lecture at me.

why don't you.

your not much better than i.

daze of a walk.

of a life.

give me the 90s look.

the makeover of the past.

i was born in a wrong time.

anyways.

memorize. more and more.

the images and numbers and letters.

like they were important.

spinning room.

like alice falling down.

i really need to watch that movie soon.

its been far too long.

pretend.

i can do that.

im quite good at it actually.

were they actually teaching this.

to me when i was a kid.

in anticipation of the future.

that would be...

ironic.

i heard your voice.

yeah, im sure.

we're all replaced.

poppy bagels.

i just want to go to the taqueria.

and order a bean and cheese.

is that too much to ask?

simple enjoyment.

a toying of possibilities.

and a final realization.

maybe this is actually helping.

i would hope so.

a finale.

of sorts.

make a wish.

and blow out your candles.

the spandex leopard pants.

bicker.

and bicker.

no one wins.

follow the cement trail.

pick up your destiny.

card shopping.

oh such fun.

chai teas and cranberry muffins.

wretched stomach.

welcome to here.

and now.

subconscious awakenings.

new revelations.

and at a 3rd visit.

how odd.

white puff and lit corners.

sit back.

relax.

and enjoy the show.

follow the crowd.

and their amusement.

return and scream.

alone again.

priceless jewels.

how chic.

new days.

work work work.

vagina monologues.

powerful messages.

and yet so torn.

the courage of stage.

blackened room.

work some more.

grab some tea.

and watch twice.

daze.

of sorts.

morning wake.

here still...

i wish you could be here too.

"for the calming peace of a cloudless sky..."

eerie music.

morning downturn.

low scores.

let it go.

move on.

counting trivia.

numbers and symbols.

oh my!

mass of people.

mark of love.

cross for peace.

packed room.

sneak past.

new openings.

and hellos.

why are you so close?

i dont quite understand.

fire alarm.

stuck outdoors.

welcome in...

finally.

take a seat and tell me your troubles.

oh so familiar.

except true.

this time.

revelations.

and a wonder suggestion.

apprehension and fear.

i just wish i was there.

or someone would tell me.

it will be okay.

phone tales.

drop by.

it was lovely.

you need to stop talking.

i want to whisper behind your back.

chocolate haven.

who knows what to do?

happy news!

new possibilities.

an early morning.

state anyway.

connect to reality.

stop blurring the lines.

social humanity.

desire to help.

and yet an obvious non-attempt.

scamper off.

come on in!

staple away.

odd choice.

ill patients.

ticking minutes.

talking ladies.

click clack.

yes i am going fast.

pardon me.

my name is not helen.

pretty little green.

chat away.

avoid the discussion.

losing my keys.

and my mind.

breakfast/dinner.

library blues.

of course i love to peruse cicero.

memorize the past.

engrained in somewhere.

another visitor.

unexpected, but not really unwelcome.

again...chat away.

pose your movement.

carefully.

away for the evening.

echoes in the wall.

another break.

a crack in the wall.

of strength and certainty.

answer the questions.

a call back.

another rejection.

oh, and another.

its curious.

i wish you had been there.

for me at some point.

but you never were.

and probably never will be.

neither will the other though.

debate the speech.

i really didn't care for it.

its the short straw.

in the stack of millions.

calm in the joy of painting.

thank you.

a midnight snack.

and trip out the corner.

tick the tack.

walk around aimlessly.

it reminded me of heb bff.

acronyms taking over.

you seem to be against it all.

i dont really understand why.

its too close.

matchmaker of sorts.

not the romantic kind.

head of blue rollers.

caretake the world.

alone.

as always.

its nice to see you.

i doubt you will be checking in.

or dropping by.

it would all be too optimistic.

dinner was lovely.

as was the talk.

pose for life.

smooth shaking.

shaky breathing.

lines of shallow trails.

don't laugh.

this is my life.

yellow parasol and a black tie.

no one.

really.

late morning again.

original.

trek up the hill.

peer pressure.

or peer assurance.

push on.

steps and steps.

child games.

my mind is out of town.

caramel deliciousness.

rearrange.

spring cleaning.

rather early i suppose.

toss the books.

and the papers.

afternoon naps.

replay in my mind.

over and over.

the last thing you said.

i wish you would just get out.

buckle everything.

get it together.

i'll try to stick to that.

little chats.

dreamworld.

its around somewhere.

bag of goodies.

teas and more.

its all so nice.

stop your projection.

i have my own.

thanks though.

long talk.

put on the mask.

its really got to be something else.

revise the ending.

wasting youth.

its more of those wasted days.

this seems oddly familiar.

lighted days.

lost in trust.

nightmare morning.

so tired...

welcome to your existence...

late mornings.

ignore the signs.

belief in thought.

scurry about.

a tiny window.

with seemingly endless possibilities.

except not.

alone in the shop.

tasty treats.

friendly passerby's.

i wonder what you are really like.

coincidence of location.

cross the line.

look past the eyes.

sorry .

trips down the wall.

sparkling jewels.

rosy cheeks.

fresh florals.

vibrant red.

and violet

and all thats in between.

planters.

booking minds.

escalator troubles.

up and down.

its a recurring theme.

nice getting to know you.

track back.

vending hopes.

flick hours.

and so forth.

blinking ideas.

meet me in 7.

quick shop.

traipse down the stairs.

goodies.

and more.

new faces.

not exactly the ones i was looking for.

cinnamon greatness.

gooey mess.

milk deliciousness.

friendly chatter.

a nice day.

exhaustion ensues.

i miss you bff.

among others.

leave the stage dark and mellow...

its not like its a garden party.

avoid the obscenity.

its unbecomming.

walk over the mat.

...again.

too bad it doesn't say welcome anymore.

a repeat.

its not dejavu.

deal with it all in your own way.

sleepy trips.

loud mouth hall.

you are not anonymous.

don't pretend like you are.

i can't handle it.

not one bit.

i feel i should use another language.

because this one is exhausted.

blanked out.

bored out.

downpour.

hide under the bridge.

be sure to take cover.

please just leave me alone.

let my space be.

its not worth it.

running over.

and over.

ignorance of range.

love the rolls.

like slides of film.

dramatic scenes.

sheets of white and gray.

and all that lays there.

down.

return out.

jumping tunes.

flying gifts.

old familiar faces.

crash.

crash.

crash.

no more.

i leave you be.

its not meant for me.

so leave me alone.

let my space be.

its not worth it.

to you.