the jewish la bamba.

clash.

serious clash.

you don't even know.

hah. parallel universe.

dawning of the earth.

fun salsa.

lead.

and be led.

its the story.

of my life.

return.

from the trip around the world.

actually its just a small part.

of the huge monstrosity.

loving the new shades.

you do need a new do.

i'm glad you didn't attack my pride.

i want my hannah pin.

no i'm a meghan underneath.

learn about the culture.

read the signs.

too bad you become the pattern.

of existence.

and attempt.

for the love of earth.

oh my.

the multiple lists.

of words and exemplars.

so you think i'm too shy.

too small to do it.

but i did.

wonderful new stores.

follow the vera wang.

and the saks.

and the jimmy choo.

you overhyped this experience.

it was easy enough.

i suppose.

getting what you want.

is always nice.

this is not coming out right.

cracking necks.

frightened wakenings.

i missed the episode.

toss and turn as you may.

you still take care of me.

and thank goodness for that.

i can't afford.

to have anything less.

sometimes i just want to run.

optional fun.

not an option.

spending time in the pink palace.

i forget to get the things i need.

and i don't know what i'm doing exactly.

but thats all i can do.

theres a good reaction.

caffeine overload.

really nothing else.

i just want to do the crosswords.

and leave behind the work.

what a wonderful dream.

of the night.

if only there were a personality of such.

its a falsity.

we know that.

thanks for the recognition.

i needed it.

calls to no avail.

and request to no reply.

the pumpkin fall.

i understand your secrets.

i share them as well.

attack.

in the morning hours.

draining moves.

compromises.

and terrified.

of tomorrow.

glow away.

you can't hurt me from there.

a changed decision.

i think its for the best.

i can't stand the press.

i hate the morning green.

and the popping.

i can manage anything.

in a different way.

without your quick fix.

i feel like a sell-out.

how horrible.

new hair.

its brighter.

and autumn.

in essence.

just keep coloring.

because i can't think of any better use for money.

although i won't lie i might take scissors to it myself.

you really neednt worry.

train trek.

maryland here we come.

a mexican outing.

for bread.

and crafts.

thank god it is friday.

where are we?

god we are lucky!

and stupid all at once.

now it's sunday where did yesterday go.

to the memorial.

harassed.

and offended.

shoes. tons of shoes.

and spanish.

and everything.

return to the bubble.

walk the line.

between the states.

it's a perfect place to be.

open your eyes.

and cry.

its all you do anymore anyway.

i can't stand being "me".

better to just project the other demeanor.

catch up on your shows.

leaves are falling.

right at me.

and a moment of clarity.

i will take care of myself.

i will no longer do this.

i will be fine.

or at least i tell myself so.

i just wish i could curl up.

on gpa's lap one more time.

and hear what he would say to me now.

the ivy life

so its been an adventure.

a nice getaway.

a needed one.

nonetheless.

there is still much to be done.

and i just may be stretched.

a little too thin.

i've stopped the reading.

and the thinking.

and for once.

i doubt my ability.

little miss trouble.

she is a feisty one.

you are overrun.

by an interesting noise.

i can't fathom.

the actuality.

must mail letter.

it's the most important piece of mail.

well no.

maybe not.

for the love of earth.

lets look at our favorites.

and just sit and sit.

my diamonds sparkle.

but not as much as yours.

i guess its just not as prominent.

and i'm okay with that.

bent electricity.

"man's final frontier."

i love thanhy.

and yale was great.

even if there are crazies.

i wonder if shes telling herself how good she looks.

cause that's what i would be doing.

if i talked to my reflection in a car window.

you know that well enough b.

or d.

i don't know which you are anymore.

"it's not for sale"

then why is it on the table.

i think you are just lazy.

going backwards.

train onward.

its not the last trip.

we've been dating how long?

and you still don't know that i complain about everything.

hah what a great one.

chocolate dreams crash into reality.

a non-sequitur.

i can't seem to keep the peace within.

why today?

a puzzling statement.

no sleep. eat. think.

just do.

its too unhealthy.

toxic in fact.

why can't you understand me?

why can't you handle my situation?

and by you i mean me.

in this impervious world of you.

lets offer a critique.

of what's to come.

there goes the alarm.

adrenaline was already running.

about two hours ago.

spilling out of veins.

cold floor.

calm me down.

please.

sighs and catch the breath.

it will be kay.

i still feel like gushing.

where will i put this anxiety?

hover over my blanket.

clutching to something real.

old and new.

why?

"and the beat goes on"

no virus can stop me.

i shall prevail.

with purell in one hand.

and clorox in the other.

what a week.

so busy.

running around and around.

could you have gotten any more condescending?

i mean, even i think that was low.

your questions are base.

i don't get the point.

its all in a day.

that i can get this done.

working to the bone.

an upper addition.

perhaps unwelcome.

perhaps not.

it shall trickle down to something.

decision to get out.

make free.

so prevalent.

for the time.

almost a perfect score.

but your just shy.

of the whole point.

i miss the times.

cause they were fun.

and i wish for more.

but regretably so.

because no one is ready for that.

so you say things have changed.

but not in my world chica.

hope. i'd say rather realism.

because i can't come to it from your view.

i don't think you understand.

the lengths i will go.

the ability that i seek.

and yet what i would give it all up for.

i will just keep plugging.

there's no sense in the mundane.

i can't stop the wild track now.

it's just too late.

i hope you've made a plan.

looking forward.

to the crispness.

and the view.

of centrality.

for me?

Such strong submission.

can hardly breathe.

heart pounding.

the good.

is being marred.

by the darkness of the bad.

i can't focus.

i want to jump.

and fly high.

leave this place.

for 5 minutes.

home package.

so delicious.

fiona apple evaluation.

so me.

why are they trying to kill us?

at least i wasn't hurt.

although i kinda wish i was.

anxiety rising.

i will conquer.

i can do this.

18 years experience.

wait i'm 19.

god i dont even remember anymore.

up and down.

can't just be calm.

i need a drop.

of something.

please let me have a break.

something of possibility.

just let it all work out.

in the end.

so that this goes as You would want.

are you kidding me?

i'm so drenched.

buy an umbrella.

a day too late.

you still have my other one.

i'm not trendy today im afraid.

just more a jumble of words.

and thoughts.

and sparks.