want to do something?

alright.

i've managed to calm.

a bit.

must get my own footing.

not placed on anyone else.

i wonder how long it will take you to respond.

its been 3 days now.

and you live 50 feet away.

how quaint.

surprises.

and overdraws.

who knows what's going to happen with that.

bored.

with repetition.

and that's the majority of this semester.

oh well its "required".

will i even make it through all the years?

who knows?

i see you have been around.

but i would rather you not try to reach me.

i've too many lists to count.

maybe i am a little anal retentive.

but idk how else to live.

i think i'll take my cues from the old master.

and do the best that i can.

for now anyway.

okay so it's no secret.

the old batteries haven't been charged lately.

or not fully anyway.

after a few hours.

you can just count me out.

so many things running around the halls.

i wish i were there

enjoying the world with you.

but alas i am not.

and i won't be for quite some time.

but it's not too far away.

there have been some added disappointments.

but the main point is still there.

lurking around.

i've not been hit too hard.

it's all pretty manageable.

or it should be.

unfortunately it hasn't been.

to my dismay.

i do need something.

i think tomorrow i shall champion something.

for myself.

better get on the ball.

in every way.

i see the lights.

before you start getting in the way.

i'd rather live to get you out of the way.

perhaps i ought to work on that.

ice shall come.

so will the snow.

winter weather forecasting.

how contagious.

i enjoy the nobodies.

i don't care for the boo's.

it's not very caring.

i think i shall keep watching.

i've been flicking around far too long.

sell the books.

keep the change.

and buy more.

love, becca.

a great big pink faux pas.

sleep.

dream.

nervous.

cry.

for the billionth time this week.

depression.

for sure.

leave the books.

in their place.

for the time being.

drop.

or stay.

it's my choice i suppose.

grocery love.

figure out the difference.

between you and anything.

old movies.

ghosts if you will.

it's a lot of work.

i'll survive.

disappointment.

it always is constant.

not exactly delightful.

sorry for the morning disturbance.

it really is a shame.

that i've been hidden.

in this web.

when i would rather just be attached.

to it.

cat on a plane.

yes.

its true.

back to school.

yay?

maybe.

hopefully.

already problems with the courses.

why???

stupid access.

i shall not let it stop me.

okay well change the sheets.

after the walk in the rain.

and make yourself available.

although not necessarily presentable.

i like your little texts.

trying to make me feel bad.

but they really don't.

i will awake again tomorrow.

bye bye!

you are just full of little slogans!

how cute.

you are just SO nice.

yeah right.

you need a different person.

to blame your shit on.

i dont know what you think.

when you talk.

but it's all stupid to me.

enough about you.

leaving the old SA town.

i'll be back soon enough though.

thank goodness.

school and work.

hopefully i'll pull it off again.

yay!

the scars are still on my skin.

i wonder if they will ever go away.

i almost forgot about the new clothes.

don't wanna do that.

better finish the packing.

and stop by the ATM.

because theres nothing left to do.

except say goodbye.

for now.

i love the RED!

well lets see.

it's something i would rather say in another language.

or would just be able to telepathically communicate.

but neither of those is particularly possible.

so i'll keep just sitting in silence.

until i break...eventually.

or you do.

i'll um be careful in the meantime.

not to step on any toes.

i guess it's inevitable in time.

it's a go?

new catchphrase?

nice.

one.

that's all you have.

just you.

yourself.

let's figure that out.

happy new year.

may it be a good one.