jumpstart ahead.

i just want to go.

i hate this feeling.

multiple feelings.

it would be okay to have just one of them.

but thats too much to ask for i suppose.

tears.

i'm spinning in the headspace that i currently reside in.

i dont know why.

well yes i do.

i expected this all to happen.

i should have prepared better.

surprising news.

just dont want to deal.

i want to be with you.

but it cant be that way.

drifting away.

its not the worst thing thats happened.

mail away the negativity.

im not going to respond to it.

i dont know what to say.

i think i will just tell a joke.

i hope you know how much i count on you.

although i feel bad for that.

self sufficiency.

i just cant do it.

but then again i think i can.

apparently not.

i need help.

im not really sure where to go.

what to say.

who to say it to.

you know everything about me.

if you put it all together.

not just one person.

i guess thats why we tell older people our secrets.

by the time we die they are already dead.

a mourning thought.

i cant imagine.

what you would think.

love.

independence.

care.

is it too much to ask?