"It's Cool"

NO, NO it really isn't.

the use of caps should underscore the meaning.

really i mean who do you think you are?

what was i thinking?

but no.

as was said.

'you put too much pressure on yourself'

it's true enough.

and why won't you answer my fucking texts.

don't worry everyone. different person.

not everyone just the two people who read this.

you know what i'm saying.

i'm just going to put on a face.

but it's not the same one i used to have.

i've realized i want different.

no i deserve different.

more.

it's funny.

what a good influence in your life will do.

and how much it just changes your view.

of what it is that you are doing.

this really should be more expressive.

and upsetting.

but i'm not even surprised anymore.

we all know the truth.

hell we've all said the truth.

but it was brushed under the carpet eventually.

under the sofa with all the cereal bowls.

jesus i still can't believe you used to do that.

you really wouldn't do that now.

thank god.

we are all so different.

from the 10 year benchmark.

i'm done.

there is no more that you can say.

to me at this point.

you just need to go away.

and not expect any different from myself.

i'm tired.

exhausted in fact.

drained of my energy.

i hope you've at least put it to good use.

i shall be home tomorrow.

thank goodness.

if only i could get through the rest of today.