truelife:i'm rebecca

i forgot all the good things.

because there is a silver line somewhere.

im not really sure why silver.

morning travel work.

and disconnect.

fun.

lets go out.

and shop.

sparkly leaves.

they match the other.

i'll take it.

brunch.

and calories galore.

but so deliciously good.

and probably not kosher.

talk.

of everything.

the everyday.

i'm glad i'm talking to someone.

cupcake time.

i dig the paintings.

and the cupcake of doom.

where to go next.

let's head to the closet.

and stare.

at the possibilities.

of expression.

this has become frivolous.

out again.

enjoy the company.

and the rhetoric.

although lets face it.

i interpret it all differently.

there's no refuting that.

political severity.

and difference in opinion.

plate of deliciousness.

thank you.

for all.

thunder mornings.

it's beautiful.

a great sign.

mesh of shape.

and an unexpected calling upon.

you just manage to push it.

and i still am ridden.

mistrusted intention.

why is this happening?

lists of to do's.

a major one this time.

it's all quite simple really.

you don't want to be in this head.

it's far too complicated up there.

the reds and the blues are connected incorrectly.

open your eyes.

and look at your space.

more lists.

but this of aspirations and importance.

a life boundless.

enough with pursuing.

especially that which i do not care for.

let's be honest.

you are not it.

edit. an hour later.

uncensor.

and just unleash what you mean to say.

i don't belong here.

in the sense of the place.

it's not undeserved.

just not right at the time.

but i've felt like this quite a bit.

everywhere i am.

insecurity and intimidation.

i got over it. and that is whats strong.

this is still weak.

i'm not jealous of you. or them.

i like my alone space.

and my close friends.

and that my family and home are closest.

to my heart.

so no.

i will find what i want eventually.

but for you to think that its what you have.

is wrong.

count and count and count.

until the number gets too low.

i really could use a better person.

as a friend than you.

but i probably could be better too.